Ever felt like this?

I got a very funny gif from my colleague at work. It's an animated graphic that depicted a worker typing heartlessly in front of his computer. He typed and typed til his hands were all bloodied and everything just cuts off. Hehe

I replied her, "YES!". Today was a long day for me. I started working at 830am and stopped til 1pm when I had to submit a deposit to my bank account and buy my lunch.

Next week 2 of my colleagues who are working on this mini-team of ours, will be on vacation. I wonder why the team lead approved it. They didn't know that they will be on leave at the same time. What was 3 days turned into a week since the first one missed out the long weekend. Oh well, I think I'll be OK. Just don't let it be critical bugs coming down the pipe! :)

So, again, YES! I have felt this way at work. Period. *hihi*

Wait a sec.. please!

I missed the train today by a fraction of a second. Less than 1 minute away, I have seen the train arrived. The dong dong dong of the train filled the air while I was literally flying already just to reach the platform. The bar has already been flagged down to prevent vehicle crossing the tracks. I was kinda hoping the kind train operator will wait for me. Heck! there's no one in the station anyway. It was already 834am and I had a few more jogs to go. Train schedule.. 834am. In my mind, it's 837am! *sigh* The train should have started puffing his way southbound already but still it stayed. So I didn't lose any hope. I was in between catching my breath and balancing myself on my high-heels sandals. Boy were my feet aching!!! But I had to run and run and run.

When I reached the platform, the doors were already closed! Oh noh!!! I walked further searching for the available door. While I walked, the train started moving. That's when I realized that it showed no mercy to a lady running her heart out just to reach the platform and let her take the ride. 40 mins later, I was in the bus - express to Union Station - my final stop. A quick 5 minute walk will take me to my office. Log in into the network, welcome the emails, yes on a Monday (what a way to start the week!), and start my work.

I guess lesson learned here is to always be 5 minutes early on every schedule, allot 10 minutes for relax walking and wake up early!!! Don't forget to check the train and bus schedule... a hundred times!!! :) Make sure you get the updated one!

What's in my bag?

Have you ever wondered what's in a woman's bag? Sometimes I wonder what other teenage girls have in their teeny weeny bags. Or those big tote bags that older women usually carry. Or those body bags worn by hippies? Or the casual business cases by the yuppies? And I wonder if there is one person who DOES NOT change bags from time to time. I know most ladies do that depending on where they are going for the day, or what they will do. I am guilty of that.

I have 3 alternate bags to work. Depending on what I wish to bring for that day, I either use the bigger ones to carry most of my things. Or use the smaller ones to hold only the essentials. I also have a weekend bag which doesn't include the work essentials items, which aren't many.

Here are what you can see in my bag:

Wallet: the most important thing in my bag
Cellphone: the 2nd most important thing
Coin purse: with or without, I'm OK
Keys: of course, I can't get inside the house if I don't have this, unless Os is home first
Lipstick: my lips are pale without it
Comb: I don't want to have a bad hair day
Ponytail: to feel refresh
Swiss knife: girl scout's best friend
Sunglass: it's summer, girl! keep your eyes from the UV rays.
Ballpen: to scribble with
Pieces of papers: to scribble on
GO Pass: Paid $187/mo for it! have to optimize this
Access card: Optional cz I can always wait for someone to get inside the bldg, but of course, I'd rather have my point of entry
Crabtree and Evelyn cuticle cream: I need this, I have a bad cuticle! this is a miracle cure for me..
Minnie Mouse card purse: this holds my other credit cards, rewards cards, coupons, buy 10-get 1 free stuffs cards
Checkbook: easy access cash, only if they accept personal checks
Datebook: to keep me updated with my activities
Breakfast: usually sandwich
Lunch: usually the last night's dinner
MP3: not to get bored
USB connection: if i need to download some files from work

So there you go, a Girl Scout myself, I want to always be ready. These alone are my essentials. If I have to bring some paperworks from the office, I would need to take the bigger bag. Else, I have to use 2 bags. Queer isn't it?

I guess the bottom reason is.. I can't find one bag that will satisfy me. If I ever found one, I think I am going to stick to it! Saves me the hassle of taking things from one and put it in the other.

Time to Take it

I really have nothing to write right now and yet I feel like I want to write something. I just finished doing an outline of the 12 chapters of theories and terms about my certification exam this coming September. Am I ready? Part of me is confident and the other part of me says I need more time. I don't want to delay this anymore. I have missed out 3 exams and I HAVE to take this now else I have to re-apply. That means, time lost and of course the fee. :)

What does this certification do to someone so junior as me in the field of my work? My supervisor once told me that I am just wasting my time and money. In the real world, no one bothers the distinction. But in the ideal world, the bosses prefers the distinction... the title. i don't want to think that I was led towards being in the ideal world because everything is slowly to become clearer. Since my boss left our team, I've got no encouragement whatsoever anymore. I am on my own. Since I've started this, I want to end this. And that's the spirit that I want to show everyone in the team.

Being junior and all, I don't think they agreed to my ideas. I have tried my best. And yet I see resistance. You don't know who the mole is in the team. And all you can do is just to be careful and be alert at all time. Do your job and be unmindful of the rest. Don't get involved. Know your place in the team. That's the greatest advise I can tell myself. Don't try to play hero.

Trust is important in the team. It's like a glass. Once broken, the pieces won't be replaced. And having a very multi-cultural working place, it's inevitable that there are groups. And it so happened that I am the odd man out. What does that leave me? A spy. The mole. So with this dilema, I am working hard to pass this exam, bag this title and get the h*ll out of the team. As of now, I am still holding on. Time to restart from the start. :)