Dilemma No More

Ok, I've decided not to cut my hair. Now I don't have my dilemma anymore. It would be easier to have long hair coz you have just tie it up, no need to style. HAHA. Cool! I'll blog again if I come across a fork in the road! :)

Lover of letters

I am a lover of letters. Everytime I see our mailbox full of letters, what joy resides in me. When I went to Manila for college, my high school friends and I promised to keep in touch. We write snail mails every week. We talked about the happenings in our lives. I tell them my experiences being in La Salle. And they, in Ateneo. I get sad whenever I don't have any mails for the day. One of my odd dream job is to work in a post office. I love watching lots of mails coming in everyday. Hmmm.. maybe when I'm near retirement. He he he

Dilemma again

Here I am again.. in a dilemma. I don't know if I should cut my hair or not. HAHA. I have waited this long to grow it. If I just cut it, it will make my "sacrifice" go to waste. Hmm... on the other hand, if I do cut it, I will feel freer and more comfy. Bathing would be more economical and I will save a lot on shampoo and conditioner. Drying hair would be easier and faster. The reason why I don't want to cut my hair is because I hate it when it's growing back on the shoulder length. If I just let it grow.. it has a very good purpose... it's added layer during winter. Hee hee. So til now, I'm still wearing this long hair style since January this year.

Little Bundle of Blessing - Part 3

Everything was a blur already as events pass by so fast. Baby grew in a matter of days. We even ran out of diapers. We weren't really prepared for a CS. So I had to ask my mom to buy some diapers for us. Friends and relatives visited us. Gave us some food. Come the day when we were to be discharged, my feet were already big and very swollen and it made me hard to walk around. My incision was healing well but I need to be under self-medication depending on my pain threshold. I did pretty well since I didn't take lots. I know Os is very tired already since he is taking care of both me and baby. And he did really really well in doing so. I give him a 101%! I just thank God that the three of us are doing OK and everything came into place. Our prayers are never ending because we know that only God's plan is the best. Friends and relatives prayed for us and we are ever thankful to them. My parents and Mom-in-law are the champions for they never cease to provide us with their assistance. We wouldn't be this healthy if not for their never ending support. I am an owl. So staying up late or getting few hours or even minutes of sleep was not a problem although I seize every opportunity I have if there is someone available to watch over little Aeisha.

Over the next few days, new challenges will come, unexpected things will happen, but we will always heed on to God's plan for He will take care of us. He will be our guide and the center of our lives now that we have His blessings. And we call it a miracle! Thank you God! We love you!

Little Bundle of Blessing - Part 2

On September 22, which is a Friday, I can't remember much but I started pushing I think at around 6am because Dr. Hew will be off duty by 7am and she wanted to deliver my baby. She came by before her time off and checked on me again. I am still 2cm dilated!!!!!! So she ... I don't know what she did but she made me dilated into 7cm then 9cm before she left. So I was already 9cm dilated and 100% effaced. Dr. Kurup took over. I started pushing and pushing. Dr. Kurup was nowhere in sight. Only Veronica and Os were assisting me. Then by 10am, the kind nurse who was assigned to me for the day, Veronica, had to go on a break. Another nurse came in. She was in blue scrubs. I wonder what distinction is that because Veronica was in green. Anyways, the pitocin drops were minimized so that I can start to push on my own. Veronica is so sweet and she assisted me through the pushing. Her words were very encouraging. Os had to look at the head which was showing already. I am glad he didn't faint! All I need is to push harder and longer so that the head will be engaged. So we were in this 'state' for nearly a good 2-3 hours until lunch time when I gave up. I cried to Os saying why is this happening to me? How come it so easy for others to give birth naturally and me, it's so hard! Then something came up from my mouth. I told Os, "Let's request for CS." We were hesitant for a moment because we know that recovery will take longer. My mom and mom-in-law arrived just when I was about to push for the nth time! Os told them that I wanted a CS already. My mom said go ahead since it's been 24 hours already since my water bag broke. As what my Achi would have said, "You're going on dry labor! Get a CS!". Of course, she wasn't here to tell me that. It was only later that I found out that she said those words. :D So we told Veronica that we wanted to have a CS. She respected our decision. I asked her if she will also be there at the operation room. She said she won't leave my side. :') So Dr. Kurup came in and checked on me. Finally she said either we wait for baby to come our naturally or go ahead with the surgery. She checked on me again and said that baby's head won't engaged. So she made calls and a CS was arranged in 20 minutes. So Veronica prepped me for the surgery. She put an oxygen mask on me. And before 230pm, we were on our way to the operating room. Os had to scrub himself and wait for a while outside the room while they prep me inside. More epidural was given to me. Thank God I don't have to go through what Dr. Lu did. There were at least 2 nurses, Veronica and Marsel, Dr. Kurup, one other doctor who was coaching me, then Os came in and sat beside me. We were shaded from the surgery. Looked like it was off limit unless we requested that we wanted to see the surgery. Whoa! No need to ask me. I dont' want to see it. HAHA. I felt some pinching and punching on my tummy and nothing else. I think they gave me some meds to make me groggy because I can't remember all the events that took place. Finally, after only a few minutes, at approximately 259pm, we heard the baby cried. Wah.. wahh.. wahh.. then Dr. Kurup announced that we have a GIRL! What joy we have in our faces. Little Aeisha Brielle is born. I was so groggy already that I wanted to just close my eyes and sleep. Os kept telling me that he can see Aeisha already although he was still beside me, stroking my head, to provide me comfort. Then Aeisha was "delivered" to us. Wahh.. she is so white, has a nice complexion, rosey cheeks, and guess what? At first glance, I can already tell that she looked like Os. HAHAHA... Most evidently are the nose and mouth. She is so cute and adorable. Then I dozed off. Next thing I knew, I was inside a room. They said the recovery room. I was naked waist up. Only my gown was covering me. I didn't know this part until I saw the pictures! HAHA. Anyways, it was my first time to hold baby. But again, I dont' recall all these. Only the pictures told me so. Mind you, I was smiling for the camera but can't remember this event. Then we went back to our room. Then my mind went blank. Next thing I know, our families visited us. My parents, Mama, 2ko, and 7pe. They came and saw Aeisha for the first time. Same comment. Little Os! :D My whole body was really sore and I couldn't move well. I need assistance even just to move. My feel felt so heavy due to water retention. I didn't have to go to the washroom yet though but still everything was really sore. Os did ALL the chores. Changing diapers. Putting baby to sleep. Swaddling her. And grabbing the chance to sleep even for a few MINUTES. I started to breastfeed but alas! I had some bleeding so I need to stop. The nurse recommended a formula for baby. Os had to get it at the nurse's station everytime baby cries. He learned a lot on this night. He learned how to change diaper, carrying baby, burping baby, putting baby to sleep, swaddling baby. I asked nurse when we are allowed to go home. She said probably in 3-4 days time. Then an attending OB came in and confirmed the same thing. We will be home in 3-4 days. That will be September 25, on a Monday morning.

Little Bundle of Blessing - Part 1

It took me a while (1 month) to finally fill up my blog. I didn't want to recall certain events. But I have to, I have to write them down and take it off my system.

Ok here goes...

On September 20, all of us here in the house stayed overnight at Acara because I am to be induced the next day. We had a hearty dinner and everyone was happy to be together. It is the first for my parents and 2ko to be here in Toronto. My uncle is happy to have at least 1 sister and 1 brother of his to be here. It was sort of like a mini-reunion. Night time, we slept in the basement comfortably.

The next day, we woke up at 7am and got prepared for our 830am appointment for the induction. Today my OB is on duty so she picked this date for me to be induced. Os drove us to the hospital. We parked. He picked a spot that somehow far from the entrance. I don't know why. But anyways, we went through Admission then went up to the Birthing place, which is on the 4th floor. The chinese nurse greeted us and she showed me to the room where the fetal monitor will be placed on my tummy so that she can monitor the heartbeat of baby. An hour passed, Dr. Hew, my OB, came in and checked on me. She told me that I am also 75% effaced and 2cm dilated. So at around 955am, she artificially broke my water bag. I felt some pain inside and a sudden gush of water came out from me. It was like I couldn't control peeing. So it was a good sign now. After a few minutes, I got up and cleaned myself. The nurse told me to keep on walking to encourage dropping of baby's head. So for 2 long hours, we walked. Another chinese nurse was assigned to me. She gave me lunch at 1pm since there was no room available yet. So we waited. I walked. Os dozed on and off on a chair nearby. We had all our things with us. Baby's bag, our luggage and our "baon" bag. By 4pm, we were told that our room is ready. So we went inside. It is a birthing room meaning that that room is also where I will push and welcome baby. We were kinda anxious already especially me! who wanted to welcome baby already in my arms. By 5pm, I was given augmentation already since I am not getting any labor pains. Pitocin was dropped in my IV. An hour later, I started having early labor contractions. Gosh, I had to use the breathing techniques that we have learned in the class. It was uncomfortable because I have to be in 1 position for hours!!! because of the fetal monitor attached to my tummy. However, it wasn't painful. I can still tolerate. He he he. Moments later, we heard the PA paging the owner of a silver Honda civic with plate number... just like ours! So Os went down to check it out. He was sort of gone for like an hour or so. And I was all alone dealing with the early labor contractions. When he came back, he said, our car was hit inside the parking lot. HUH? What? Say that again? Our car was hit inside the parking lot. It was wrecked and unrepairable. HUH? so that means we need to buy a new car???? Call it a blessing in disguise, but we really planned to buy a bigger vehicle already once we have baby with us. It just happened to soon. The other driver drove 60km/hr inside the parking lot because he has an emergency. Don't we all??? For Pete's sakes, it's a hospital, emergency is what they accept. Anyways, so we don't have a car already. 7um and Gerard arrived together with my parents and they assisted Os with the car while my parents stayed with me. They had to see me "suffering" from the pain. After visiting hours, they went back to Acara. Os came back already with added pressure on his mind. I prayed to God to give Os strength to endure all these because I need him to focus!!! I didn't get any dinner tonight because it is not allowed. It can interfere with the pitocin drops on my IV. By 11pm.... I can't tolerate the discomfort any longer so I requested for an epidural. Half an hour later, the anaesthesiologist arrived, Dr. Lu. Gosh.. the pain is so unbearable that the nurse had to hug and squeeze me and enveloped me in her arms. I was already whimpering with pain since he had to inject me twice!! All the limbs in my body started to get weak as Dr. Lu injected the needle into my spine. Gosh it was so painful!! I wanted to end every minute of it! I guess Os was just as terrified as I am since I have a high tolerance of pain.. but this?? Anyways, so after that, it felt so so good. The nurse told me that I will dilate on my own and by morning, I should be 10cm already. She advised me and Os to get a good night's sleep since we're gonna start pushing in the morning. So we dozed off to sleep. Halfway in slumberland, I had a urge to throw up! Maybe it's because of the effect of the epidural. I threw up 3x! Then I dozed off on and off though til the morning.