17 September 2005
Finally Over
I want to despise myself already for taking them too lightly. Some, yeah, I did great but to the one with highest marks, I don't think I did. I even answered one fo the question that was worth 10 points WRONG! *geesh* It really hurt my morale. I left work for 2 weeks and this is the feeling that I have? This means, my U$300 will not be reimbused. Hu hu hu! If I retake this exam, I have to pay another fee with no guarantee again. This is intense mental distress!!! I don't know... maybe it was a bad move after all. *sigh*
Anyway, I just want to forget today. I just want to relax and read a good book and put all these thoughts at the back of my memory already. The best is yet to come!
14 September 2005
Smoggy Weather
The past few weeks, Toronto has been experiencing muggy weather and smog alerts have been raised. Apparently, the municipality of Toronto heartened everyone to take actions and reduce smog. One interesting program they have is the 20/20 The Way to Clean Air campaign. It encourages people to save energy both at home and on the road.
According to the Smog Advisory issued by the Ontario Ministry of the Environment, the smog is extremely bad this year. For the past years, the highest number of smog alert days was only 20 in 2001. Four years later, for the first 9 months of the year, smog alerts were raised 44 times!
It has been formulated that smog is formed when the heat and sunlight react with gases and fine particles in the air. Its color can be depicted as brownish-yellow, hazy cloud over the city on hot summer days. Smog usually affects rural areas like Toronto and outlying suburbs. I want this sultry weather to end now. I want to welcome the cool and seamless weather of Fall.
03 September 2005
Christmas
Thinking back, their "Christmas in August" theme brought us a number of advantages. The plangent strains of Christmas carols emanated from across the well lit building to our room. Because of the lights that they leave on every night, we need not opened our lamps when we sleep. The room that my sister and I shared was always filled with the cheery and festive mood. That's the only thing that I can recall and miss home... when it's Christmas.
20 August 2005
Mow again....
The lawn is like a man's hair. They need constant haircut just as the lawn needs constant mowing. We put in fertilizer to them as we put conditioner to the hair. Often times, we want our lawn to be properly trimmed just as we want our hair to be.
It's fun to do the mowing. With the proper equipment, the end result is pleasing to the eyes. Mind you the lawn is also like a lady's hair. It gets fly aways, too, if it is left too long. Hehe...
There are many types of lawn mowers. One thing they all have in common is the noise it makes. Well, we have to exclude the reel mower. It works the same way but it is not as effective as the gas-powered ones or the electric ones. The hand-held is also a plus if your lawn is just small, although it gets tiring after some time.This is the lawn the we have right now. Os is doing the mowing and I assist on the electric cord. We don't want the smell of gas filling the fresh air we have in our backyards.
06 August 2005
My Stars
Andrew - named Andrew Gabriel Lopez. He is my first nephew. He is also my godson. He is so active that you have to watch all your things.. hehe. He is a sweet boy when he's listening and something else when he's not. HAHA. He used to be in PREP school when I was staying with my sister. And he brings home nice surprises and boy! he learns fast in school. Now he's almost 7! Time ran to fast!Adriel - named Lawrence Adriel Lopez. I have never met him. He was born when I came back to Toronto. I haven't got back since. I heard from stories that he's a very shy boy. Andrew minus Adriel in a room ... Adriel is an angel! He's got funny moments, too. He's got a petite frame for an almost 3 yrs old. He's got thick hair but straight.. that's the good thing about it. :D
Aetom - named Audric Thomas Lopez. I'm not sure about the spelling, though. He is one ATOMIC BOMB! His smile is so captivating that will make you 'gigil to the max!' Everytime I see his pictures, it makes me want to grab him and squeeze him tight. And according to my mom, being a toddler 2yr old, he likes to explore around! And he runs like he's flying. He's so darn fast! My dad would say that Aetom is a small version of Sto. Nino, because of his curly hair and sweet dimples.
Aedan - Reece Aedan Lopez.. I think! HAHA. Well, my sister asked me to help her to come up with a name. I gave her Aidan. Hehe. I'm not sure though if it's REECE AEDAN or AEDAN REECE. This baby is going to be 1 this November. He's a combo of Adriel and Aetom. And he's a mama's boy. He cries if it's not my sis carrying him. Hehe.
Ashley - the jewel among the batch. Named Ashley Jewel Ang. The only girl among the stars. This girl is oh-so-cute. She's got so many bloopers that I can always laugh about. I used to babysit her before in exchange of a prepaid phone card for my cellphone. HAHA. Imagine if I converted it to cash.. HAHA.. I miss this kiddo!All in all.. the "A"-list are my stars. Hope they can come and visit us here. Life would be great! Cleaner environment.. better quality of life.. more benefits for kids like them! CIAO!
ps. Thanks to my sistahs for sharing their pictures with me. :)
27 July 2005
Ever felt like this?
I replied her, "YES!". Today was a long day for me. I started working at 830am and stopped til 1pm when I had to submit a deposit to my bank account and buy my lunch.
Next week 2 of my colleagues who are working on this mini-team of ours, will be on vacation. I wonder why the team lead approved it. They didn't know that they will be on leave at the same time. What was 3 days turned into a week since the first one missed out the long weekend. Oh well, I think I'll be OK. Just don't let it be critical bugs coming down the pipe! :)
So, again, YES! I have felt this way at work. Period. *hihi*
25 July 2005
Wait a sec.. please!

I missed the train today by a fraction of a second. Less than 1 minute away, I have seen the train arrived. The dong dong dong of the train filled the air while I was literally flying already just to reach the platform. The bar has already been flagged down to prevent vehicle crossing the tracks. I was kinda hoping the kind train operator will wait for me. Heck! there's no one in the station anyway. It was already 834am and I had a few more jogs to go. Train schedule.. 834am. In my mind, it's 837am! *sigh* The train should have started puffing his way southbound already but still it stayed. So I didn't lose any hope. I was in between catching my breath and balancing myself on my high-heels sandals. Boy were my feet aching!!! But I had to run and run and run.
When I reached the platform, the doors were already closed! Oh noh!!! I walked further searching for the available door. While I walked, the train started moving. That's when I realized that it showed no mercy to a lady running her heart out just to reach the platform and let her take the ride. 40 mins later, I was in the bus - express to Union Station - my final stop. A quick 5 minute walk will take me to my office. Log in into the network, welcome the emails, yes on a Monday (what a way to start the week!), and start my work.
I guess lesson learned here is to always be 5 minutes early on every schedule, allot 10 minutes for relax walking and wake up early!!! Don't forget to check the train and bus schedule... a hundred times!!! :) Make sure you get the updated one!
09 July 2005
What's in my bag?
I have 3 alternate bags to work. Depending on what I wish to bring for that day, I either use the bigger ones to carry most of my things. Or use the smaller ones to hold only the essentials. I also have a weekend bag which doesn't include the work essentials items, which aren't many.
Here are what you can see in my bag:
Wallet: the most important thing in my bag
Cellphone: the 2nd most important thing
Coin purse: with or without, I'm OK
Keys: of course, I can't get inside the house if I don't have this, unless Os is home first
Lipstick: my lips are pale without it
Comb: I don't want to have a bad hair day
Ponytail: to feel refresh
Swiss knife: girl scout's best friend
Sunglass: it's summer, girl! keep your eyes from the UV rays.
Ballpen: to scribble with
Pieces of papers: to scribble on
GO Pass: Paid $187/mo for it! have to optimize this
Access card: Optional cz I can always wait for someone to get inside the bldg, but of course, I'd rather have my point of entry
Crabtree and Evelyn cuticle cream: I need this, I have a bad cuticle! this is a miracle cure for me..
Minnie Mouse card purse: this holds my other credit cards, rewards cards, coupons, buy 10-get 1 free stuffs cards
Checkbook: easy access cash, only if they accept personal checks
Datebook: to keep me updated with my activities
Breakfast: usually sandwich
Lunch: usually the last night's dinner
MP3: not to get bored
USB connection: if i need to download some files from work
So there you go, a Girl Scout myself, I want to always be ready. These alone are my essentials. If I have to bring some paperworks from the office, I would need to take the bigger bag. Else, I have to use 2 bags. Queer isn't it?
I guess the bottom reason is.. I can't find one bag that will satisfy me. If I ever found one, I think I am going to stick to it! Saves me the hassle of taking things from one and put it in the other.
03 July 2005
Time to Take it
What does this certification do to someone so junior as me in the field of my work? My supervisor once told me that I am just wasting my time and money. In the real world, no one bothers the distinction. But in the ideal world, the bosses prefers the distinction... the title. i don't want to think that I was led towards being in the ideal world because everything is slowly to become clearer. Since my boss left our team, I've got no encouragement whatsoever anymore. I am on my own. Since I've started this, I want to end this. And that's the spirit that I want to show everyone in the team.
Being junior and all, I don't think they agreed to my ideas. I have tried my best. And yet I see resistance. You don't know who the mole is in the team. And all you can do is just to be careful and be alert at all time. Do your job and be unmindful of the rest. Don't get involved. Know your place in the team. That's the greatest advise I can tell myself. Don't try to play hero.
Trust is important in the team. It's like a glass. Once broken, the pieces won't be replaced. And having a very multi-cultural working place, it's inevitable that there are groups. And it so happened that I am the odd man out. What does that leave me? A spy. The mole. So with this dilema, I am working hard to pass this exam, bag this title and get the h*ll out of the team. As of now, I am still holding on. Time to restart from the start. :)
26 June 2005
Chance or Fate?
This led me to recall a supposedly-prequel scene from the movie "Serendipity". This scene wasn't in the film but what would have happened was this: John Cusack's fiance bought this book from a 2nd hand bookstore without knowing that the book contains the number that Kate Beckinsale scribbled for John.
So the fiance bought the book and proudly gave John as a wedding gift. She thought of the book since she noticed him flipping through the pages of the same title everytime they are in a bookstore or a let alone, a 2nd hand bookstore. She thought that book must meant a lot to him. Little did she know that he was looking for the same book Kate wrote her number on.
It's funny how the film depicted ways so obvious for them to know that they were not meant to be at that time and meant to be in another time. The more I think about the movie, the more it made me want to go back to New York. A nice movie indeed…
17 June 2005
Learning To Stand
Friday, June 17, 2005
by Os Hillman
..."Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring you today...." ~ Exodus 14:13
The Israelites had just left 400 years of slavery in Egypt. They had fled to the desert, but they had come to a dead end at the Red Sea. Word reached them that Pharaoh had changed his mind. He was sending his troops to recapture the Israelites. They cried out to their leader Moses, complaining that he had brought them that far only to die in the desert.
Learning when to move and when to stand is the greatest challenge for a workplace believer. We are trained for action. We are not trained to sit idly and wait. We are trained to solve problems, not wait for them to resolve themselves.
However, God says there are times to wait. We are to wait until He says go. If we go before He says go, we likely will make our situation worse. If the Israelites had attempted to cross the Red Sea before it parted, they would have drowned. If they had fled north to try to avoid the Egyptians, God would not have moved in a miraculous way. God cannot work on our behalf if we continually try to solve our problem when He has instructed us to stand still. Standing still is sometimes the greatest action we can do, although it is the most difficult thing to do in the Christian walk.
Stand still when He says stand and see the deliverance of the Lord.
"Today's Prayer"
Dear God, I know You are able...able to move mountains, to speak creation into existence, to heal the sick, save the lost, to meet every need I have. I commit myself to You. I pray for all the people around the world, plagued by turmoil, wars, illness, lack of basic needs, insecurity and fear, and addictions that enslave. Lord, You alone know best how to meet these needs and solve these dilemmas. I pray that You would intervene, that people would be drawn to You, and that You would give them rest and healing, safety and security, a sound mind and a hopeful future. I pray that You would help me to see who You want me to minister to today and offer a hand of fellowship, a ray of light, or whatever You want to offer through me. Thank You, Lord, for meeting my needs. In Jesus' name I pray, amen.
(c) Copyright 2000 Os Hillman. www.marketplaceleaders.org
To contact author: os@marketplaceleaders.org
15 June 2005
Break Away
Anyways, I'm taking my break right now. We are just writing test cases and I have finished my part ahead of time. So I am just resting and reviewing my work. It's just something that I need for a long time now... relax! I've been working without breaks starting February when I came back from vacation. Well, it's not exactly a vacation because I have been 'working' around the new house. :)
Last night, it rained in Toronto. Rained hard that we could hear the rain drops falling literally on our roof. It's a pleasing and soothing sound but combined with the thunder and lightning.. it wasn't pleasant at all. We woke up with the sunny sky greeting us but the wind was cool. I am fine with it rather than having a hot and sticky weather.
The coming days will be cooler as what the forecast say. Weekend would be nice especially for those who are anticipating some activities for the summer. Mind you summer officially starts on June 21. Toronto is filled with summer activities. That's what makes summer so great here. I guess we are slowly recovering from the SARS outbreak that badly hit Toronto 2 years ago. Hopefullly this year's summer would be a fun one. Enjoy!
14 June 2005
The 'DAY'
The ceremony wasn’t that lengthy. We were asked to line up and the welcoming committee received us by checking our landing papers and required us to relinquished our PR cards. Then we were seated according to our seat numbers. My number was 59. A song card identified our seat numbers. I was seated at the aisle. One by one the seats were filled. After all the 110 candidates were inside the courtroom, the presider let all the guests go in. There weren't many. About 2 rows of 15. So Os was seated near the front row.
The ceremony started when the judge stepped in the court. He looked like jolly old St. Nick rather than a judge. Being an immigrant himself, he gave us a nice analogy of what it is to become a citizen of Canada. He said that all of us in the room are like a cloth that is about to be sewn into a quilt. The thread on our cloths are the steps that we took to become someone who can contribute greatly to the country. Together when sewn, the cloth becomes a quilt. And the quilt represent the unity of the new Canadians.After his short and sweet speech, we were sworn into oath. First in French then in English. I wanted to laugh when we started to read the oath in French. But I kept to myself. When the English oath started, everyone read aloud. It’s like a sigh of relief for everyone. Being able to read the oath is one thing. But reading it is French?!?!? Anyways, we were then called one by one to line up on the side and get our certificates after our names were called. We then shook hands with the judge as he congratulated us and handed us our citizenship certificate and our card. Then we went back to our seats. He again congratulated all of us and then we sang the national anthem O canada. Then we waited for a while before the judge came back and we took pictures with him. My camera went off course so I was able to have only one shot! But it's OK. :) The judge advised all of us to go home and celebrate and eat a piece of cake! He he
All I can say... it took a lot of moxie to be able to attain this stage. Reflecting the events before I set foot in Toronto 4 years ago, I don’t know how I did it. From leaving my home country and leaving my family behind, I accepted the challenge to embark into another horizon. I know I made the right choice. It’s a dream that is realized and materialized. Dreams do come true after all.
02 June 2005
Clear and Clearer
This is what happens if we have Christ in our lives. I learned this analogy from a retreat way back university days in La Salle. The facilitator demonstrated how 'clean' is it have Jesus in our lives. He had a bottle of painted water. He had a pitcher of clear water. He let the clear water flow into the bottle of painted water. Slowly it became clearer and clearer. Imagine without having Christ in our lives, we will forever be like the painted water, never clear, never clean.I always remember this analogy til now and I am still sharing it to my family and friends. You can share this analogy, too!
01 June 2005
28 May 2005
A Canadian Citizen From Afar
I hurled my stoned-heavy Samsonite bag over my shoulders, my backpack at my back, my oversized trench coat in one hand and my travel documents and my plane ticket on the other. I checked in the counter and got myself a boarding pass. I remembered being the first one in line. Because of that, I had the privilege to choose any seat I want. So I requested for an aisle seat as what everyone suggested.
I remembered it was an hour before my departure for Hong Kong. I was way too early. I never really liked flying. I just don’t feel comfortable even if it’s just a short flight. But we are talking about a long flight here! I calculated the total number of flight hours. Almost 24 hours! And ALONE! Again, I have never been away from my family for a long time. And there I was … about to embark into a new dimension. Yes, I had apprehensions up to the last minute. Is this what I really want? I kept on asking myself. Is this the kind of life that I want? I can stay if I want to. But my mind has been set. Another road has been opened for me. I failed finding that missing piece in my own country. So I had to leave. It wasn’t an easy choice. But it wasn’t a difficult one either. I had to make a change. I had to instigate it.
So the plane took off. Landed in Hong Kong. Took off again and landed in Anchorage for refueling. Then took off again until finally we landed in Toronto, my home for the years to come. After the Immigration stamped my landing papers, I am officially a Permanent resident of Canada! I am off to start my new life. I was greeted by my ‘family’ here. I owe them a lot for their generous hospitality. They supported me all the way. Even up to this very point.
A year had passed. I made friends. Went to places. Then a bewildering event has happened. Fate has brought two souls together destined to become one. The man that I want to spend the rest of my life with.. finally came into the picture. It was a remarkable year for me. I went back home and spend time with my family. It was a sweet homecoming. I felt like I have never left. Nothing had changed. From the people I left behind and the places I have been. Everything was still intact. I took the jeepney rides. I was astonished to find the fare to be way more than I expected. I even squeezed myself in the LRT with the crowd. I once again experience that floods and the traffic. Pollution not to mention, the hot hot hot weather. Could you imagine that?
Finally, I came back on my 3rd year as a permanent resident with hubby. Looked for a job then settled on with our lives. The job hunting was really like a survival of the fittest. We had to find income to make both ends meet. I was again lucky to find a job that opened a path for me to walk towards a career.
On my 4th year, I applied for the much awaited event of this whole process… become a Canadian Citizen. It took me one month to wait before I got an acknowledgement letter from the Immigration office. After 11 long months, I finally got my exam schedule. A month later, I was asked to appear for the oath-taking. I can’t wait for the day to come when I will face the judge, shake his hand and receive my citizenship card. I will surely beam with joy. I will pledge allegiance to the Queen and to the country of Canada. I will sing O Canada by heart both in English and in French. From that day on, I will fulfill my duties as a Canadian Citizen.
18 April 2005
Hebrews
Hebrews 7:25"Therefore He is able to save completely those who come to God thru Him, because He always lives to intercede for them."
Life here on earth is not a guarantee to be problem and worry free. You are not leading a normal life if you don’t encounter problems. Even the perfect of all perfect people have problems.
The prerogative of leading an abundance life here on earth alone bears the eccentricity of life itself. Sporadically, you are not certain when you are on top of the wheel and when you are down. You succumbed to bearing your own cross. You habituate yourself into unearthing your own strength and mount up all the credits when you found victory in your deeds.
Admit it or not, no one is perfect. Life has its ups and downs. If you are having great difficulty, tell Jesus about it. He will present your needs to the Father. Through His intercessory work, you'll experience the remarkable results that only His prayers can accomplish.
07 April 2005
zzzzzzzzzzz...
I can't help it! I always have to take my nap after at the most of 3 train stops. I'm glad there is no law against that. North America started saving the daylight last Sunday, April 3. Still the day started so early but the good thing is, it ends a bit later now than usual. I can't get myself up at 6am. Today, I woke up at 550am. Then I went back to sleep. Bargaining with sleep, I told myself, "10 more minutes". Little did I know that I have slept for another 30 mins!! I finally had to dragged myself to the bathroom at around 630am or so. So that means, I have 20 minutes to prepare. Oh my! But did I make it? A big Yes-Oh-Yes! That was the fastest that I could ever imagine! I even blow dried my hair, styled it. I even prepared our lunch for today! Goodah!The lesson learned here is to sleep early, which I am still very much guilty of. The nice thing is a good book is my sleep inducement. Now I have to find a solution to fight over my weariness. Because what I have right now? Is sleep itself. There's not much that I can do. :)
04 April 2005
Troubled?
I find this reflection very useful in our daily walk of life with God. We should always remember that God has a purpose for everything. When I was younger, I had instilled in my mind that we don't get granted what we always wanted. God's answers to our pleas, our requests and prayers are in three folds. Either YES, NO or WAIT. Usually, it takes time for us to realize the NO part because we insist the reply to be something that we want and not according to God's plan for us. The YES part might come in pretty easily because we got what we prayed for. We usually think that God rewarded us because of our good deeds. Yes, I agree. But we must never fail to give Him thanks and praises. The WAIT part is the hardest. Personally, waiting takes time. It can either lead to a YES or a NO. So it is very crucial to prepare ourselves for the answers.
Read along.....
Few unbroken lives in this world are useful to God. Few men and women can fulfill their hopes and plans without some interruption and disappointment along the way.
But man's disappointments are often God's appointments, and the things we believe are tragedies may be the very opportunities through which God chooses to exhibit His love and grace. We have but to follow these lives to the end to see that people who have been broken become better and more effective Christians than if they had carried out all their own plans and purposes.
Are you, my friend, being broken today? Has the dearest thing in your life been torn away? Then remember that if you could see the purpose of it all from God's standpoint, you would praise the Lord.
The best things that come to us are not those that accrue from having our way, but by letting God have His way. Though the way of testing and trial and sorrow often seems hard and cruel, it is the way of God's love and in the end will be the best for us.
Remember, we have the Lord's promise: "No good thing will He withhold from those who walk uprightly" (Psalm 84:11). —M. R. De Haan, M.D.
02 April 2005
Saturday once again...
Last long weekend, which is about a week ago, we had our kitchen backsplash installed. Yes, we did it ourselves. Seems like an easy job eh? But it's not!! Believe me. It took time to cut the tile and have it set. That kept our long weekend busy. HeheI am still waiting for Shocha to be ready for our voice chat. She said PA is not home yet so we have to wait. Maybe I'll just relax and soak myself in the tub for now. Hehe.. BRB!
01 April 2005
Home Away from Home
Zamboanga City as I came to know is a melting pot of blending cultures. Chinese, Malaysian, Spanish, Japanese, Arabic and Caucasian blood. For almost three centuries, the Spaniards rules over Zamboanga City. Their center of settlement being the Fort Pilar.
I remember going to Fort Pilar in my early childhood. "YEY! It's Fiesta Pilar again!" I would always say these words with excitement. Mobs of people pile up to light some candles. Long lines piling up to catch a glimpse of the Blessed Virgin Mary. Offerings were made and request and prayers were given.
I would always seat beside my Dad and say "I want to light some candles, too." He'd always carry me on his back and line up in the early dawn to avoid the devoted crowds. How can I leave the City of Flowers behind, after all, this is where I grew up. There is no place like home sweet home. Who would?
30 March 2005
My First Blog
I started another blog already so what I think I would do is to do the power of C-V to put it here. C-V? Ctrl-C to cut and Ctrl-V to paste. HAHA
I will keep this short and sweet and will try my best to log in everyday so that my shocha will find something sensible here. HAHA. Right shocha?
Maundy Thursday
I spent most of my days after college in Manila, so Holy Week means a time to reflect on the resurrection of Christ and at the same time, to relax. We usually spend our Holy Week either going to a beach or just stay home. The latter never happens. We are always away from the city during this time. This is one of the two days in a year that businesses are closed. Nada. Nil. Sans customers. So it's a bit quiet day for us. The other day would be New Year's Day.
Back in Zamboanga, we usually visited St. Joseph Church to reflect and witness on the resurrection on Christ. There is also a procession going on depicting the sufferings of Christ. It's an interesting procession. Everyone watches the line attentively. I remember me and my Achi were angels in one of the procession. We have a picture with that and that's how I remembered. We were dressed in white and we had wings and halos. It was quite an experience although I barely remembered it.
Now that I'm here in Canada, Holy Week still means a time to RELAX and mostly a time to reflect on the suffering and resurrection of our Christ Jesus. God sacrificed His Only Son to save us from sins. Whatever hardships that we are experiencing right now is not even 1% of what Jesus suffered. And yet He never complained. If only people in this world will be Christ-like, then no problems will ever occur. :)
Now is the best time to reflect on our shortcomings and ask for forgiveness cz only Jesus forgives! :)
Have a nice day y'all!
NOTE: This is supposed to be published last Thursday. :)
